Me & Kitty Still Hanging In There

I’ve been feeling a lot more energetic lately. So far I’ve lost 29 pounds and last week I was even able to complete an entire tae bo workout without stopping or skimping or anything twice in one week, after working a whole day even. I was horribly sore for days afterward, but I did it. I’m probably lucky I’ve lost anything this month, but my weight loss has been going really, exceptionally well. That’s in spite of there being about a morning tea (work party for my American friends) nearly every week of the month for which I’ve made chocolate gelato, coffee almond crunch cake, cheese cake, ice cream cake, and pumpkin pie, thank God the people I work with eat it all up :). It’s actually nice to be able to enjoy a good home made dessert, without having a bunch of it sitting around to tempt you into having too much. Plus I REALLY enjoy making desserts so it’s been quite fun. The crunch cake was based on a Gordon Ramsay recipe & it was really delicious, so was the cheese cake. Really, so far I’ve been very pleased with the quality of the recipes in his books. I’ve made quite a few things from “Healthy Appetite” and “Cooking for Friends” and I’ll have to write a review of them because they’ve been quite satisfying; easy to prepare, and yet quite flavorsome. Continue reading Me & Kitty Still Hanging In There

It’s Been Awhile

I’ve been so tired lately I just haven’t had the energy to write. When I get home from work I don’t even really want to look at my computer, though that’s when I have to tally up what I’ve eaten for the day. Lately I’ve been too low on my calories throughout the day, and I’m just not all that hungry, but I know I should eat more; just not for my dinner meal. I also have to tally up my exercise for the day, and then fit some extra in to meet my goals. I am feeling pretty good lately though; the only thing is everytime I get a cough or a pain in my hip I freak out a little on the inside about the lymphoma coming back. Continue reading It’s Been Awhile

Day to Day

I’m feeling resolutely human of late, and I don’t think I care for it. I’ve always been quite strapping, pretty well bursting with energy most of the time, plus a little invincible feeling. I’m stunned that just going into the office a couple days a week, managing a bit of public transport, water cooler talk with my work mates… is killing me. I need to take an afternoon walk when I go into the office to keep myself from clean passing out at my desk. I feel like a broken record too, I’m stuck in the “I’m so tired” groove, and I wish someone would give my needle a good flick. Everything I ever thought feeling tired was, is energetic compared to this. It’s funny too because I’m eating some of the best meals and in the best proportions that I ever have. No caffeine or caffeinated drinks, loads of fresh fruit and veg, limited amounts of bread and pasta and regular lean protein, my little nutrient pie charts on Spark People show a good balance of carbs/proteins/fats and I’m doing well with my calorie range, so I don’t think it has anything to do with how I’m eating. Sleep is another matter. I’ve always had a bit of chronic random insomnia; I don’t really focus on it or dwell over it, but it is often hard for me to shut down for the day. I’ve been making a concerted effort in terms of that though. I know sleep is really important, and I’m making a serious effort to prioritize my bedtime. Hopefully that will help me out soon because I seriously feel depleted. I guess maybe I should do some reasearch into how long chemo sticks with you. My body is feeling great though. Stronger than it has in years and more stable. I was noticing when I was walking a few days ago how much more power I feel through my core, particularly through my pelvic area. It’s really such a relief to finally feel strong and sure of myself when I walk again, one step at a time I guess… power walking for now, power working for later :) Continue reading Day to Day

Plea for Help Response

I just wanted to let people know that my friend Shway, who posted a plea for help here awhile back has managed to find work and is very close to acquiring insurance, hopefully her cancer will not be considered a pre-existing condition. She recently had to move house, and now has some difficulty accessing the internet, but wanted me to thank those who offered a donation or any other form of support, so thank you everyone.

Exhaustion and Eisenhower

I started going back into the office to work last week, and well I guess I’d never really thought much about exhaustion before, but I think I’m encountering it. I am so tired my head keeps falling over, but I have stuff I want to get done. The sad thing is I only went to work two days last week and one, so far, this week. Part of my problem is that I have been encountering some terrible insomnia lately; it seems I’m super tired until my head hits my pillow, then I’m wide awake. Continue reading Exhaustion and Eisenhower

Back to Work

I’ve started back to working in the office this week. I was in on Monday and I’m going in again tomorrow. I’m really surprised at how tired it made me. I don’t know whether it was talking to everyone or just the traveling or sitting upright all day or what really. I was proud of myself that I actually got up early enough to fit in a workout though. I’d like to keep working out before work as I think it revs up my brain as well as jump starts my body. I was also able to pack my lunch and take it in so I wasn’t eating crap for lunch, which also made me feel good.

I hope I don’t get as tired tomorrow. I’m not crazy about being so wiped out. I really needed a nap at about 3:00PM or so, and I came home and fell asleep on the couch (that could have been because I had an extra unplanned walk in order to get home though too. The bus run was slightly different than it had been before, and I ended up having to walk about a half hour from the bus stop to home… a REALLY hilly half hour at that :). Still, it felt great that I could do it.

Flu Strike

I am so sick right now; somehow I’ve managed to catch the flu even though I live like a hermit. I went to see my doctor this afternoon and she removed the “dissolving” stitches that were put in after my port removal, and her advice is fluids, no milk and gloopy foods (cheese & white bread…). Ugh I won’t write much as just looking at the monitor is making me want to go pray to the porcelain, but thought I’d pop in anyway just for a brief update. I HAVE to do something to boost my immune system as I can not handle being sick. I’m just not a sick person, even though right now I’m trying to keep myself from pulling out my eyeballs to keep them from killing me, and I would pay someone to put their hand through my skull and yank out whatever is causing my head so much pain, of course I’d probably promptly throw up if they did, but…

Down by 22.5

Since I started elevating my exercise levels and watching what I’m eating, I’ve lost 22.5 pounds. It really hasn’t even been all that hard as of yet. I’m really enjoying my walks and work outs. I’m feeling stronger than I have in years, and walking down hills doesn’t scare me anymore. I’m so thrilled with how I’m doing so far. Today I made some really delicious chicken soup that’s nice and low in fat (I made sure to chill the broth so I could remove the fat after cooking the chicken and before I started making the soup. Continue reading Down by 22.5

Down

I haven’t been writing much lately because I’m a bit down. I don’t really know why; I think maybe it has something to do with this weird feeling I get now when I’m just using the computer. I feel like I should be doing something else. I think I have a tendency to be a bit compulsive sometimes, or just really type A I guess. If I have an interest in doing something I want to do it perfectly, and now that I’m focused on getting fitter I feel a weird compulsion to be constantly moving, and I feel guilty when I’m not. I wish I wasn’t quite like this. It’s frustrating and sometimes a little depressing because I know no one can really be perfect at anything. Continue reading Down

Because one thought just leads to another…