Swamped
September 20, 2008 by Jacqueline
Phew, this has been one busy week. I had a little minor surgery on Tuesday, primarily to remove my port-a-cath, and the anesthetic they gave me wiped me out for most of Tuesday and Wednesday too. I tried to take a bit of a walk on Wednesday and Bernie had to come pick me up because I was so weak and dizzy, not to mention nauseated. I thought I’d had the same anesthetic for my port insertion & for my apheresis catheter insertion, but I didn’t react like for either of those procedures. Maybe they upped my dose or something, I have no idea, but I was wrecked.
Top that off with having gained a kilo since last week, in spite of upping my exercise and staying within a range of about 1500 – 1800 calories a day all week. At least I lost centimeters in all of my measurements, so I can delude myself that I’ve put on muscle and it weighs more than fat 
. Heck it may even be true. That or the surgery may have caused me to retain some water weight. Still sucks though . Maybe I should make my weigh ins a monthly instead of a weekly affair, but it does become a bit of an obsession. I’ll just continue feeling good about the loss in surface area though until the scale catches up with me.
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Jacqueline
can identify with wipe-out mode
finished 6 RCHOP-14s three weeks ago, and still feeling tired, not helped by a chest infection
counsellor recommended this PDF article, on the need to recuperate, convalesce, rehabilitate
recommended
http://tinyurl.com/4r6myl
best wishes
Tim
(still got to get my blog going!!)
Thanks for that article Tim it was a really good read, and I see a lot of it as applicable, especially the part about feeling betrayed by your body because the disease didn’t really make you feel that bad; I really thought I would have been feeling much worse than I was.
One key thing that’s strange in my case though is that I had felt that my life had become so limited before my cancer was diagnosed. I was basically fighting so hard not to be a total invalid, and not to be totally house bound. Now that my treatment is over I do feel elated. It’s so awesome to be able to move again. I guess I’m one of the few survivors that does feel that they’ve been set free by treatment. Though treatment really does stink. I do have to be careful though as I tend to think I’m invincible and have limitless energy… and the real me doesn’t really live up to the fantasy me. I am trying to take it easy, though, but I am just so full of joy to be so mobile again.
Hope your chest infection clears up soon. Are you all finished with your R-CHOPs then? How is everything going. Let me know. Best wishes right back at you, and be sure to send me a link to your blog when you get it going
All the best,
Jackie