The computer woes just continue…

Ugh, this silly laptop is just causing me no end of grief. I’ve had to reinstall everything again, and I’m only half way through at this point. I have to say though, this is not a good time for messing with computers. I’ve been a bit queesy today and tired, though thank heavens in spite of this machine I haven’t been cranky. Luckily I’m not too foggy after this round of chemo to mess around with installations. I do wish my side effects were a bit more predictable though. I thought I was doing very well yesterday, and today rolls around and kicks me in the pants. Some of it I guess is my neulasta shot. It apparently helps my bones produce more neutrophils (a kind of white blood cell) to help fight off infection etc, but it does make me a bit tired I find and it sometimes makes me achy. Hopefully tomorrow will be good though.

I wish I knew a bit more about how chemo works. I can’t figure out whether now that my tumor is gone the rest of me will feel worse or better. I mean will the chemo be more toxic to my good cells now that it doesn’t have any tumor to fight, or will more of it just leach out of me without incident. I don’t know if part of the reason I felt so bad early on was because the tumor was dying and my body was having to resorb the dying tissue and get rid of it, or my body just went through some nasty stuff when it first encountered all that toxicity. Maybe now it gets used to it more easily because it’s encountered it before.

So many questions, so few resources… I knew I should’ve been a doctor. I’m also very curious about my pelvis healing itself. I can’t wait till I can see the new bone in an x-ray. I’ll try to post that with a copy of my moth-eaten pelvis if I can figure out how to scan a copy of an x-ray.